A way a kid expresses his Love for Jesus..

Perfect Christian?

Have you ever thought about being a perfect Christian? or just by checking if you are acting/behaving like a perfect Christian?

Well, i do, most of the time. I see myself, very imperfect.. i look at each statement that i made about things in life. But it just doesn't really give me the geese of what life is about.


As i reflect upon 2007, i have to confess, this is a really Jan year, i had all the fun i wanted, i got try out new stuff, i got to do things that i wanted, and not to do things that i didn't want... till the extend that i got myself in deep deep sorrows, heavy laden burdens in which stacks up everyday... i chose a alternative.. i choose to either ignore those facts, or drink down my sorrows and got drunk. I did things that are really wrong and against my principles, just to be able forget whatever deep sh** i was in....



I believe according to what i can remember, is that i haven't touch the bible for a whole year... and even stopped going to church for about 4-6 months... all these things that I've went through, such a huge step i took.. away from being with God.

Coming to realize that life just seems so wrong without God...




Well, to me... i really start to see what God has done for me... First and for most, it all started with an email regarding about helping out the drama ministry in terms of logistics for the coming Christmas musical production they are putting up. It was because of that email sent by Babra that really lead me to feel kina "guilty" because i did give my word on helping them out... and I guess God did open a window for me, to so called "give myself an excuse to come back to church". And i did..

And i attended WEB.. nothing's new.. nothing different..but it was from there that God lead to another window... another window to coming back for senior webs... which i was lead to this senior WEBs Christmas party...

Ok.. something really significant happened.. i seriously was quite reluctant to go for this party, but i went to the party out of "giving face" to the person who invited me.. after which.. i really couldn't stand putting up a nice smiley face, so i went down.. bought a can of beer.. walking off... when... mingxuan saw me at some corner that he was sitting at.. called me to join them..

I did.. we talk and talk talk.. and as we were talking, i found so much resemblance and so much similarities of how we felt about WEB (not that there's anything wrong with WEB), and i never ever felt what ming xuan (and some of us) felt SOOO SIMILAR about what we were going through. I never thought that a JC student would feel the same way as how a poly student would feel. It was as if God was replying to my prayer (like duno how donkey months that i prayed ago).

I'm not alone in this race...


From there.. it gave me the motivation to come to senior webs more.. so.. started hanging out more with my wg peeps.. and talked to guoren.. and stuff... one thing still remains..

still holds me back.. and that was the question, "Yes.. i do know that God went through a lot for me.. but what has God and His will, have anything to do with me and my life? I don't see the link of how i can don't worry about my future, when i have to get and aim for good grades? How does then God's will/word apply to me?"


I thank God for brother Mark Cheong and Kelvin Koh, my real old old web buddies.. whom really stayed up through 2-3hours in the middle of the night after the party (it is one of the RAYS CG Christmas party), to talk to me about all this..

The answer to all that doubts and worry... is the word accepting His Grace that was given and to know that we humans are imperfect by nature.. and it is by Grace that we have all these...

little things that i worry, like where am i going get the money for food? was answered.. just to trust in God.. if God plans for you to fail... then He must have His plans for you.. and that He will provide... that's if you learn to trust.. and grab hold onto this trust..

Will you grab onto this trust, by first accepting His Grace for you...



Just wana share with you guys this song that i wrote 5 years ago.. when i was sec 1.. recently towards the end of 2007, i changed the lyrics.. hope it's of relevance to you..




New Lyrics
Title: Covers me
Key: A

Intro:D, E, F#m(Guitar Plucking)

Verse 1:F#M,E, D
Life's a journey that's so lost
Like a kid whose masquerading
The journey seems so long and hard
Always find me unremembered

Always longing for a Saviour

Chorus:A, E, F#M, D
I want that love that covers me
And cares for me
No matter' how much i have to go through again
He'll be with me


Verse 2:
I tried and tried to fool myself (again)
It never seems to go
Found me back in the pit again
Life seems so wrong

Never had a chance to pray